FAQ

While I don't really get any questions with the size I am, I put together this list of anticipated potential questions that I expect to be asked if I ever gain an audience again.  I am notoriously hard to reach, so this should save some waiting 😓

What do you use for your tracking?

A more detailed breakdown is in the About page, but I use a modified VRoid with ARKit blendshapes in VNyan.  I use a damaged iPhone XR I got off eBay for like $70 for face tracking.  I don't have it yet, but I intend to use a foot-pedal setup for expressions.

Creative Influences and Inspirations?

Artistically, my main influence was probably Takeuchi's art in Fate/Stay Night; though I also drew a lot of inspiration from my artist peers on the dead bird site.  In terms of writing, my biggest influence is easily Kinoko Nasu — they wrote the visual novel that changed my life, so its only natural.  Musically, my biggest influences are DM DOKURO, Yuki Kajiura, Toby Fox, and KATE & James.

Where can I use your music?

If you want to use any of my songs, you're free to do so as long as you give credit and it's not a simple re-upload. I would prefer that my stream soundtrack and leitmotifs not be used for channel branding specifically.  Remixes and covers are allowed and if you make one please send it to me!  Check the Music page for more info before using.

Do those runes in all of your works say anything?

You have everything you need to decipher them.  It's all hidden in plain sight, you just need to know where to look :)

Why is your voice so different in earlier videos?

I am transgender, and fully figured that out around 1 year into streaming.  I hate my old voice, but I want to leave those videos up, as they largely shaped the girl we became.

Where did you get your username?

I wanted to post some fanart, but I needed a username.  I typed lazily typed Arcana into google translate because I didn't expect to go anywhere; the countless other times I made content, my heart wasn't in it, so it only lasted a few weeks.  But randomly, this was the one I guess?  I was considering changing it to something more original, but I was already known by Aru on streams — a nickname I quite liked — so I just went all in!

Fan-Art Guidelines?

If you do fan-art of me, I will literally cry 😭 Please don't do anything NSFW or anything with gore.  Additional, please don't do any genderbend art of me either for dysphoria reasons.  Romance is generally ok as long as it doesn't get suggestive and its not with a real person.  Please send any art to me on Bluesky!  Don't bother sending me AI artwork, I don't want to see it.

Do you still use twitter?

No.

How old are you?

Believe it or not, I'm 27; everyone thinks I'm like 19, which is flattering, but quite false.

What's your opinion on AI?

I hate it, and I wish generative AI as we know it never existed.  AI does have its place in medicine and science, but I believe that generative AI as we know it today has been nothing but harmful to society.  In line with this, please do NOT use my work in anything AI-related.  This includes AI fan-art and chatbots.

Why are you always on hiatus?

Life has been tumultuous as of late, and it will continue to be so.  Also, I am disabled, and can barely get out of bed sometimes, though this can be mitigated with a good bed-based setup.  That's all there is to it, really.

Why do you try so hard, despite a lack of talent?

To be honest, I don't know?  I've just kind of... always been this way.  I may not sound it, but I'm really stubborn, and don't like failing.  I will throw my head at the same brick wall over and over again until one of us gives way.  And if I fall first, once I'm recovered I'll get right back to it —

Do you enjoy making things?

Sometimes?  It's complicated.  I'm not naturally an artistic or musical person, but I want to be so badly that I'm pushing through anyway.  I learn at a significantly slower rate than most people, and that can of course lead to frustration and burnout.  However, once in a blue moon, I'll have a night where everything flows together and makes sense; the coveted "Good Art Day" if you will.  In that brief amount of time, I tap into... something, and I actually fully enjoy myself when creating.  So, to answer the question: most of the time I just feel nothing during the process, and I have to push myself to do anything — It's more of a need than a want.  But on "Good Art Days", I fully enjoy every second of the process, and am truly happy.

Why are you so melodramatic on social media.  Are you ok?

Eh, it's been tough. I have mental health issues, which come from places I would rather not talk about.  I am doing everything I can to mitigate them, but it's a long process.  Apologies if I ever have an episode on social media and worry anyone.  If it helps, I am not suicidal — if I ever was, I would not be posting about it on social media, and would instead go to the hospital.  That being said, unless we are actually friends, please don't send me messages about my mental health; especially if I've disabled replies on a post.  I am in therapy, and there are many great people that are close to me that I talk to about this stuff.  I'm not really in need of more people to vent to.  We will be more open about our mental health struggles as we feel more comfortable.

What do you want to do with your life?

I just want to make people happy, and create things that resonate with others in the same way the media I experienced resonated with me.  My lack of skill keeps getting in the way of that, but I'm hoping that one day I can push through and finish a single one of my projects.